Now a bit about this Guru and path, as most are not familiar with what Crazy Wisdom is about (no it's not about sex nor abuse).
As a Guru and a teacher i am harder than most and don't give the ego candies that people want to hear constantly. Why is this? Because as Wonderful and warm-hearted as it sounds, if it continues to keep you bound to the wheel of "it has to feel good to be valid" then you haven't as yet found out that the path can be difficult. People more often than not seek out a feel-good Guru, one that gives only what you are willing to hear. I will be forthright and honest in assessment - if there is clinging to something that is unproductive, yes, this will be challenged.
Love is that which seeks your Total Liberation, not the momentary feel-good enabling. I wish to see you in total Unchanging Freedom. This CAN be found in this lifetime - but it takes being willing to go beyond your externalized masks to That which is before any projected image. To the Light beyond lights.
YOU MAY ASK SOME OF MY SADHAKAS HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO BE CHALLENGED, BUT WHAT HAS THEN BEEN GAINED IN THE LONG RUN.
If you have come to the site only for information, as you have a Guru already, the question I ask you is: Why do you not go to your Guru for the information you are seeking here? If they do not have the Wisdom you seek then perhaps they are not qualified to aide you any further and it may be time to connect with a Guru that Does Know the way through this part of the journey. You respect the Guru you are with Now - and the ones that have Served you in the past for furthering your journey to home.
Most do not understand the wisdom and guidance and way of Kali - Kali cuts to the quick and gets to the heart of the matter most rapidly. She is either seen as the All-Loving Mother that cares for her children 100% through tough love OR she is blamed when one does not understand that clearing the way, or in-your-face immediate karma, is her way of showing that something is not working and needs be changed. One may either surrender within the Universal Flow and Harmony or may remain kicking against the goads when ego wants to rule it's way. My energy as a Guru is that of Kali - it is all based upon Love - the Love that aides one in clearing the way of all the dross, but this clearing may seem like entering into the fires when the crud of repressed garbage begins to emerge to be released. I assure you though that no matter what difficulty comes one CAN go beyond it and once in Realization the drama is at an end, never to return as a driving force.
Here are a couple of Poems that illustrate this dynamic - they were written for one of my Gurus - the one that was Most instrumental in moving my journey to completion.
Poem #1 Answer me this: What is sharper than a two edged sword? What is mightier than the pen?
If you had a true Guru you would know. Only their love and compassion make it so. Have you yet guessed? Or do you not know?
The sword cuts swift and deep. And the pen is mightier than the sword. But the strongest of them all is the tongue of the guru..... WAS IT EASY? NO - BUT NOW IT IS KNOWN THAT WHAT WAS PRESENTED WAS GIVEN FROM THE HIGHEST LOVE. ONLY THE GURU THAT LOVES YOU WILL CHALLENGE YOU - THE REST WILL GIVE YOU WHAT YOU WANT TO HEAR AND WILL COLLECT THE MONEY FOR THE SHOW.
Poem #2 Within your mind is emptiness the stillness reigns supreme
and from your eyes the love shows forth and compassion there is seen Your mouth is full of truth and wisdom there abounds
and if we looked within your heart the Self of God is found
You walk in Bliss and share with us your radiance of form Your gift to us can never be repaid for with knowledge, Peace, and Bliss we are reborn......
Poem #3 I humbly bow and kiss the Lotus feet of my Guru For he has taken me
from darkness to light. He has shattered the world, and has given me eternity. He has cast sin body and mind into the darkness; and only sinless Truth eternal remains...
i search my rememberances for your face and form and Guru-ji they allude me. Like mists on the Ganga you have come and gone. And yet you have so permeated my being that i feel you ever near.
Strange it is that the face of my beloved has vanished and i remember it not. But your love and compassion enfold me and i feel myself resting in the arms of my beloved. My hear rests close to your heart and i am content in Peace and Bliss.......
WHEN CHALLENGED ONE FEELS INDIGNANT - ANGRY - THE RUSH OF WHO DOES SHE/HE THINK THEY ARE TO SPEAK TO ME THIS WAY. THEN ONE SETTLES AND GOES WITHIN AND SURRENDERS.
THE KNIFE OF AWARENESS BEGINS TO CHOP AWAY AT THE DROSS AND WHAT IS LEFT IS PURE GOLD. ONLY LATER DOWN THE WAY IS IT UNDERSTOOD THAT WHAT IS GIVEN IS GIVEN FROM THE DEEPEST COMPASSION AND TRUE LOVE - THE LOVE THAT SEEKS YOUR FREEDOM RATHER THAN YOUR WELL WISHES AND ENAMORED JOY HOLDING TO A CHARISMATIC PERSONA.