This is not something that one aspires to - it isn't about powers, as those come along the way and may be huge traps of ego. One bypasses these and does not waste the time to continue to develop them.
Yes, sure, they make an appearance for a time. But NO power brings Realization. NO power equates with long-lasting spiritual Knowing. These are only interesting to those who are looking for a way to establish ego and all powers have only to do with transient realm dynamics.
In my case i was a seeker from a young age - there was no specific urge to want to become a Guru. I entered an Esoteric Christian Order at the age of 18 and received Shaktipat which awakened Kundalini fully. For some days was in a Samadhi state and was seeing auras etc. I went forward for a number of years of inner search. My path turned out to be quite eclectic in nature.
Bhakti - Mystic - Shavite, but always through Kundalini. The Kundalini was strong and at times there was a feeling that spontaneous combustion was just around the corner.
Lot's of phenomena - Lights - Strong Visions - Powers came and went. None of this is what is of value - (with the exception of seeing my past life and how it was drawing in certain experiences within this lifetime to be passed through). This gave a footing for deeper growth and a starting point for deep contemplation which cut through a number of roots.
I suffered for years and looked for help and there was nothing to be found - there was a lot of theory out there and yes some yoga classes being taught by sihk persuasions but none of these had a clue as to what to do with an actual Kundalini awakening that was in full motion.
As the universe would have it - i went to India and my Guru's appeared. I had two and both were instrumental in aiding to break through the last of the bonds and bondage of ignorance and illusions. My Guru was a Tantric - a Sat Guru and when He saw that this one had come to completion He commissioned me to go forth as a Sat Guru.
I also had another Guru - Sundar-Puri. He was a Naga Baba Shavite and He also recognized where the Consciousness was and also commissioned this one to work with the foreigners to aide them in their journey's. He also was adamant about my taking Sannyas. And son this was done as well.
I tried to get out of being a Guru because once you are ready for it you Understand the Karmic undertaking. It is a huge responsibility and nothing that is taken lightly. I went to Bhadrinath and a Sadhu living in a cave there came to me 3 times requesting that i be his Guru. So this was my first Sadhaka, as after the 3rd request one accepts.
I have also followed and stuck to my Guru's admonitions and do not charge a fee but leave this to donations. Also i do what is possible to speak on what Tantra Is versus what is being peddled in the west as better sex (arghhh). I say Tantra is a Full Heart On and not a bigger hard on.
One would do this for some type of ego aggrandizement. I live in a studio apartment. Am up at 6 AM working with Sadhakas over the net - in person - on the phone up till midnight daily. No one is here waiting on me. I don't do Satsang shows - or sell retreats. Yes, i say i'm a Sat Guru a Spiritual Teacher - one that has gone the Whole of the journey from fear and suffering to the completion, wherein all of this has dissolved as if it had never been. This is simply the truth of the matter.
This is not a boast as there is no pretension in the Ground of Being. One enters, rather, a most Ordinary Simplicity. All have the SAME Divine Essence of Being - none have more or less than another. The difference is simply that i no longer have the coverings in place which keep the me-story and saga in motion. That ended.
So there is no **glory** in being a traditional Guru. The **Glory** is reserved for those who are setting themselves up as World Guru's and want big followings and Stages. I have no stage and won't sell out for money or fame. This is idiocy to do so. There is nothing that the world has which can compare with the Simplicity and Fullness which is Realization.
Just as i was commissioned for this work - Siddhananda was commissioned for this work by myself. Now this was the furthest thing from her desires. But she has gone forward and continues in this work - she entered Realization on the 20th of July and at that point became a full Guru within her own right. Did she aspire to this? NO. Did she seek powers? NO. Is she seeking fame? NO.
As you can see quite clearly, One that is open to giving what may be given freely using the net - is also open to every disgruntled individual and to all their pot-shots and hatreds. It is only compassion that keeps one giving in this manner.
I have continued to work through the path of Kundalini - Shiva - Kali & Ganesh - and have seen remarkable transformations with Sadhakas. Does this equate to a big ego trip? What is there to be egotistical of? One is only *special* in the midst of the journey. Realization pulls the carpet out from any such inclinations as the separate Me (with it's very special powers and knowledge etc) is swallowed up by 0. hahahahahahahahah One enters as St. John of the Cross said rightly - the Unknowing that is beyond all knowledge. And the great Mystery simply IS. And Shiva/Shakti, or Absolute and Transient, are Not Two - Not Two.
As far as mistaken ramblings as to what is here versus not, it can only be said that the world interacts with a persona - and the transient body remains doing what it has done and so the externalized personality is seen by others to remain. OK - but when one looks within (a matter of speech - as no inner versus outer remains) there is no longer a me. It is as if it never was. This consciousness has no words that can be spoken which mundane mind that is within duality may cognise. As all words and values are first constructed by language based upon duality and separation. One gives Knowledge yes, in the flavoring of the societal structure that is being addressed - and a flavor that flows whether from a more Bhakti - or Jnana type of revelation. That is all.
So to summarize, not all who are Guru's set out with an aim to become a Guru. For some of us - it is just the last of the karmic flow playing out. I would be just as happy to be wandering or sitting and watching the dance of leaves in the wind as this brings a Bliss as it is within as well as without as ONE. No separation. This again is hard to express within words.
A street sweeper has just as much of the Ground of Being as does a Sat Guru. There are no formal entrapments here that people must sit lower than the Guru etc. No bowing - No one here doing my bidding. hahahahahahahahahaha People come and we go out for Coffee and Satsang takes place. Very Ordinary. Nothing special here.
